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Saturday, November 6th, 2004
5:39 pm	hmmm...yes after reading what chas had to say i have to say that i feel pretty useless....cuz he totally has a point...hmm....interesting (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 24th, 2004
8:02 pm	sigh..... I've been thinking about a lot of really big things lately. If you know me well enough you know what i'm talking about. BUt there is one thind that is constantly on my mind. there is a certain guy whos been on my mind a lot, and he's said things to me, that he'd help me with this whole thing. he really means a lot to me, and i wish we could maybe be more than friends. god, i really wish i could tell him....but i'm to much of a chicken....maybe he knows who he is....if he does....talk to me...pleeeeeaaaaase...gah. Fair is in 2 weeks......i'm fucking scared...cuz that stupid justin kid is gunna kick my ass Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
7:05 pm	Cowboys Galore! SO....going down to Double E, really gave me a chance to stop thinking about Kyle, and just let loose. I got to see some really great people, Kathy, Debbie and Alan. Sadly Robin turned into an asshole and got himself fired. Also, sadly Preston was on vacation, but his half-brother Josh was there. Yeah.....Josh. So last night we just started talking and really hit it off, so we walked around......and ended up sleeping together.....god dont get me started, so naughty......need to know more....llama me. Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
8:59 pm	fucked up summer So i think this summer might go down as the worst summer i have ever experianced. 1. I lost someone i love, and lost a good friend in the process. 2. Ian called me up, told me the truth, and than killed himself. 3. Mother found my pipes, smashed them, and now i'm prob off to boarding school, whoop dee fuckin doo 4. Met a guy, Kyle, went out with him for a while, thought he was a really great. that was until he started beating the shit out of me. 5. Who knows whats next...... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 19th, 2004
2:08 pm	FUn FUn Well I quit Chemistry, and now i'm taking some retarded SAT class. Its okay though, its only monday and wednesday. So the otherday i was sitting at Blue Dragon with some people, when Avi came over and was like Hey mal, Florian thinks your really cute. I thought to myself....SWEEEETTT. Then Chris and i decided to be be retarded and switch clothes. So Chris put on my shirt and proceeded to hit on Florian....lol it was quite amusing. Then Florian ended up calling me and we went out for coffee. Good fun. wow that man is attractive. Last night Lyds, Becky, Amy, Anna and i went to The Big Spank show. Boleszek was adorable, as usual. God i love ska! woooo hoooo! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: SOAD-Pyscho Groupie Cocaine Crazy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
11:16 am	I have rediscovered this song You Oughta Know I want you to know that I'm happy for you I wish nothing but the best for you both An older version of me Is she perverted like me Would she go down on your in a theater Does she speak eloquently? And would she have your baby I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother 'Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, 'til you died But you're still alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know You seem very well, things look peaceful I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity I hate to but you in the middle of dinner It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced Are you thinking of me when you fuck her 'Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, 'til you died But you're sill alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know 'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me And I'm not gonna fade As soon as you close your eyes and you know it And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back I hope you feel it...well can you feel it Current Mood: content Current Music: Oughta Know-Alanis Morissette (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 31st, 2004
8:35 pm	Lordy Lordy SO uh....today was fucking scary. Okay, well my mom and i went on a trail ride at Tamaya....and my mom's horse spooked and she got buck off...and hit her head on a rock. so shes sitting there fucking bleeding, and i'm like HOLY FUCK, i jumped off my horse and sat with her till the ambulance came. god it was fuckign scary. so i sat at the hospital till about five minutes ago....and brought her home. Shes okay, just has a fracture in some small tiny bone in her back, and a cut on her head....fucking shit, scary stuff. god, i thought i was gunna die myself....at one put the EMT's thought they had to give me oxygen. oh dear. okay, well i'm off. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 29th, 2004
2:49 pm	I can handle this. And i am. It seemed horrid at the start, but now, i feel a lot better than i have in quite a while. It was Jay, miraculously, who noticed it...lol It was the first thing he said in a while that actually made sense. He said "You know what Mal....you look...STRONGERRRR THAN YESTERDAY!! No seriously, you look liek youre doing a lot better" Then i thought about it and...yea a lot better. Well, work is a bitch, dont get paid a lot. oh well. Jay and Jeff leave on monday....which blows. start summer school in a bit, which blows....a lot. Oh well maybe i'll meet some interesting people who take chemistry.....highly doubtful. Current Mood: content Current Music: NOFX-Clams have Feelings (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
6:13 pm	Yes, a jewish person can do physical labor Whoopdee doo, i got a job. sadly, i dont think that i get paid minimum wage. $5 an hour, but i dont have to get taxes taken out or any shit like that, so at least i'll have some money in my pocket. Jay and Jeff leave soon, like next week or something. Fuck, that blows, they're moving all the way to fucking Sydney, i truely dont know why. Oh well, i hope i get to hang out with them this weekend or somethting. so yeah yesterday was unique and intersting. Lydia and I went about a million different places, but ended up at the Blue Dragon for most of the night. I got to meet Mark Mallory, who is quite adorable. We smoked a bit and went on a little Wendy's run, listening to the South Park Movie Soundtrack....lol that was quite amusing. At the Blue Dragon we saw Adam and Aaron play, and it was so great! They played Get Low....oh lord, i died, it was so damn funny!!! ahhh anyway, i'm gunna go buy some pants...goodbye Current Mood: blank Current Music: Leftover Crack-No Cash (Comment on this)
Monday, July 26th, 2004
11:39 pm	i'm just going to say it Most nights i go to bed crying, thinking about why i did what i did. There were some reasons that made sense but i can't function without him....:( i justdont knowwhat really to do. It makes me sick thinking that i brought this upon myself, but its so true. I know he wont take me back, but, if he reards this, which i doubt he will, i just want him to know that i love him so much with all my heart. if anyone gives me shit about this, i swear to god yur fucking dead. Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 24th, 2004
7:20 pm	Near Death Experiance SO Becky and Lydia almost died today.... It was damn scary. A bunch of us were sitting in Addies car, when Avi said hey guys....uh, look at beckys car. We all turned around and than said oh fuck!. We then ran out of the car to help. Becky was backing her car out of Anna creepy driveway......and in an attempt to miss hitting gregs car....basically swerved off the cliff that is anna driveway. The two wheels of the fucking car were off the ground and the car was balancing with the weight of lydia and becky in the seats. so becky got out, and lydia and had to stay in because if she got out, they car would have fallen over the cliff into oblivion. So then Lydia put the car in neutral, which got it off the cliff but it started heading down hill towards Addie's pimp mobile, (note: Lydia is still in the car) So Addie stopped the car but jumping behind it and pushing it. it was about half a foot away from the pimp mobile. Once it had stopped, we all were like HELL YEAH WOOOO HOOO!!! but god it was so fucking scary. Becky's car was ready to fall off that damn cliff. but then the day got better by all of us eating a shit load of food at India Palace....mmmmmmm. We promised not to tell anyone when we got back to school, but the minute we showed up on campus, we couldnt stop laughing and had to tell a lot of people. lol sigh, that was some scary yet fucking funny times. THen i proceeded to get my ass kicked by a mother fuckin spanish exam. Oh well better luck tomorrow, yay for Math and History!!! Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Operation Ivy-Caution (Comment on this)
Friday, July 23rd, 2004
10:27 am	the real question is why does it say july as the date.....oh well please ignore (Comment on this)
10:25 am	riiiiight So, i'm sitting here on a sunday morning, doing nothing, listening to some Reel Big Fish. I should be studying for finals but i can't get my mind to focus on anything. Yesterday and friday i got confirmed, and now i never have to step foot in that fucking synagogue ever again. Last night i basically vegged out, Seth and Avi came over for a bit, and then i watched Kill Bill con mi madre. So today i plan to do nothing, maybe purchase my iPod and take a nap. this medicine makes me pass out so quickly! thats about it. Focus mind Focus.....on something else. :( Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: Reel Big Fish-Sell Out (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 20th, 2004
7:11 pm	blah. well, life is just going haywire. it was pissing me off so much, i felt the need to "leave my double bio". I felt so much better once i went to starbucks with Avi lyds and toni. sigh....oh well...i guess thers nothing i can do about anything....oh well Current Mood: crappy Current Music: Never Been Kissed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
7:30 pm	P-unit God, parents, they make no sense sometimes. I just feel the need to rip off the mouth of my mother and just make her shut the fuck up for once. Shes always preaching about how i dont try at all and i'm a failure and blah blah blah, and i just wish she would get off my back and let me live my life the way i want to fucking live it. I wish things would go my way, just once in my life. I wish Mark would talk to me....at least say hello, or something. :( makes me sad. God, there is way to much drama at school these days, sometimes just wanna go in a corner and listen to my ska music. gah, no fun. get me outa here and out of this fucking house.....AHHH!!!! Current Mood: depressed Current Music: CTTS-Kill the Switch (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 18th, 2004
7:33 pm	hmmm....interesting Its hard to write something right now without pissing off at least one person, if not more. so, yeah my weekend was pretty good, hung out with lyds on friday, hung out with Lyds Jesse Avi Aaron Boleszek on saturday. i will now quote from a conversation some people had on saturday; "...So i guess Lydia told you" "Told me what?" "..That I.." "..Well i guess Lydia hasnt told you." "..That I..." And that was Saturday. :-D Well yesterday was interesting as well. "So do you wanna do something about it?" "Yeah, i do" "What do you want to do?" "No clue, you?" "Nope. At least we agree that something needs to be done." SIGH. Gotta call from Jon the today, he was out of town somewhere...and he was drunk. lol he told me he loved me and wanted to marry me. hmmmm...awkward oh well. I'm really pissed off that i'm going to be stuck it summer school while everyone else is out having the time of their lives, in Morocco, at MICA, or where ever it might be. Damn them all!! I decided that after summer school if over, i'm going down to Double E to meet up with Kathy and Rob and have a kick ass time. wooooo hoooo!! I'm sad though, because Maurice is not a part of Double E anymore, dont know why...:( I'm really excited to see Kathy again! Peed and i both miss her! She's the mother i wish i had. I also miss Debbie and Alan and Preston all the gang, and i can't wait to see them! I also got a job down at The Livery cleaning stalls for Cathy O'neil. Finally there will be some money in my pocket. I guess i lied when i said there wasn't much to write.....hmmm oh well Now i must write a paper before mr. holmes kills me. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Dropkick Murphy's- The Dirty Glass (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 11th, 2004
6:04 pm	Yay, i did a quiz.... Today, we caused a nuclear holocaust....damn it to hell Basics Your gender:: Female Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight Single?: negative! If not, do you want to be?: negatory Birthdate:: March 10, 1988 Your age:: 16 Age you act:: depends on who i'm with... Age you wish you were: 13....so i wouldnt have to do anything...ever current height: 5'2 Eye color:: hazel Happy with it?: sure why not Hair color:: reddish Happy with it?: yeah Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: lefty Your living arrangement:: parent... Your family:: Mother Have any pets?: yes Whats your job?: student Piercings?: yup Tattoos?: nope Obsessions?: The OC..(i'm a nerd Addictions?: Mark Do you speak another language?: attempting Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it Do you live in the moment?: yeah Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: nope Do you have any secrets?: Yes Do you hate yourself?: Sometimes Do you like your handwriting?: yes Do you have any bad habits?: yes What is the compliment you get from most people?: That I'm a funny jew If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: Nose What's your biggest fear?: Children Can you sing?: nope Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: negative What are your #1 priorities in life?: Mark, being alive....being me If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:possibly Are you a daredevil?: i guess so Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: um, i dont get it Are you passive or agressive?: I'm both Do you have a journal?: nope What is your greatest strength and weakness?: um,friendliness... and being paranoid If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: everything Do you think you are emotionally strong?: not so much. Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life:: god yes, you have no idea Do you think life has been good so far?: yes i beleive so What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Truth hurts. What do you like the most about your body?: eyes Are you confident?: depends Do You... Smoke?: yes Do drugs?: yes Read the newspaper?: not really Pray?: no Go to church?: when i'm forced Talk to strangers who IM you?: always Sleep with stuffed animals?: no Would or Have You Ever? Liked your voice?: sure Hurt yourself?: yea Been out of the country?: yes. Eaten something that made other people sick?: yes Been in love?: yes Done drugs?: yes Gone skinny dipping?: yes Had a medical emergency?: yes Ran away from home?: yes Played strip poker?: yes Gotten beaten up?: yes....stupid jewish boys Beaten someone up?: yes Been on stage?: yes Slept outdoors?: yes Thought about suicide?: yes Pulled an all nighter?: yes If yes, what is your record?: 4 days Gone one day without food?: yes Talked on the phone all night?: yes Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yea Slept all day?: nope Had sex with a stranger?: no Thought you're going crazy?: yes Beliefs Belive in life on other planets?: no Miracles?: no Astrology?: no Magic?: no God?: no Satan?: he has my soul Santa?: never have. Ghosts?: yes Luck?: no Love at first sight?: yes Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: no Witches?: no Easter bunny?: no Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yes Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: i am confident Do you wish on stars?: if they fly Friends Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes Who is your best friend?: Mark, Lyds, Peed Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Mark What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: Fuck it. latest inside joke?: "GROWTH!!!" Thing you're picked on most about?: How Jewish i am Who's your longest known friend?: Peed Shyest?: Peed, sometimes Funniest?: Johnny Sweetest?: Peed Closest?: Mark Weirdest?: Nate Smartest?: Peed Ditziest?: Lyds Friends you miss being close to the most?: Johnson Last person you talked to online?: Peed Who do you talk to most online?: Mark, Jonathon Who are you on the phone with most?: Mark, Peed, Lyds, Gubb Who do you trust most?: Mark Who listens to your problems?: Mark Who do you fight most with?: My mom Who's the best singer?: F-DAWG! Who's on your shit-list?: Cunts #1,2,3 Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yes Current Mood: blah Current Music: Catch 22-Slow Song (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 18th, 2004
9:27 pm	ISAS Alrighty, well i went to shit Dallas, for ISAS with Lyds, Becky, Seth, Toni....and a bunch more people. Loads of fun, minus the Dallas part. Its possibel that i could be going to Oxbow with Lydia and Becky, one of the other, if I can get into Oxbow, and afford it that is. Shroeder came up on Saturday, and i got to go visit him today. He seems to be settleing in nicely at Cathy's. He's just as adorable and sweet as i had hoped and remembered. Hopefully i will get to see him Thursday, Friday, and both Sat and Sun. EXCITING! Jeanie is also taking me to go get a saddle bridal and bit on wednesday. That will be exciting. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: System of Down-X (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 4th, 2004
7:02 pm	long time no see...er type SO, yes i am 16...not so special..I also went on a cruise with Peed and met some really interesting people, ChiChi, who broke his foot and nose on the last night, Mike, who is always followed by chichi, Courtney who went from age 24 to 18 to 16 in the span of a week, Seth, with a funny accent, Mike who thinks everything smells like wet ass. Andy, who the biggest drug addict ever, "yes, lets take a hit. wait no! i love smack" Levi, the cutest boy from Indiana EVER! ahh....yes so many other people, cannot mention them all. Well last night i went to a show and saw Boleszek being very adorable in Ask the Man. I skanked the night away...ahhh yes, Burt commented me on my skanking and gave me some ska fest flyers. God ska makes me happy!!!! LAAAA!!! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Choking Victim-Five Finger Discount (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 8th, 2004
4:44 pm	um, yes..... Well, yes I am throughly terrified of my friends brother...yikes....totally a pedifile...oh well what are ya gunna do? RUN AWAY! FAST!WOO HOO oh lordy, 2 days till my birthday, 2 days til i turn the big 1-6...whoop dee doo, i really not that excited, just felt the need to pretend. Oh man, Boleszek cut all his hair off.....oh so cute! i just wanna eat him up! yes well, didn't talk a whole lot today, dont know why, being a bit "emo" i guess. Ah yes...also i pulled like some muscles that cover my ribcage....i dont know what from...*cough*...but yes, it may require doctors attention...GROSS!!! everytime i go to the doctor i end up having to hold some ugly ass baby thing for like 20 minutes....my mom loves them....yuck...personally i say we get rid of all the babies in the world.....and eat them...yes, that'll do just fine... Current Mood: pensive Current Music: Odd Project- A Perfect Smile and Broken Wings (Comment on this)